Not Sleeping

I don't generally sleep well before big events like Christmas, my birthday, or any event in which something amazing is going to happen. In this case, I can't sleep because tomorrow is Valentine's Day, as well as the day of my Orientation for school, and my job interview for Kindercare. Then afterwards, my boyfriend, Jared, has something planned for me. I'm just not aware of what it is. He's a good guy and surprising me ;)

In other news, I bought a dress today.

I censor'd out my derp face and phone because... well... it was just a weird look and I only had my camera phone and a mirror. I haven't had time since buying the dress to take a legitimately good picture, so this will have to do.

This dress first came to my life when I was looking online at Torrid's stuff. I got a gift card to Torrid for Christmas, so decided I needed to spend it. I saw this dress and instantly fell in love. I drove up to the Torrid in the South Towne Mall and brought along Amanda for emotional support. She was great. I bought the dress and then we visited a friend out in Midvale, you know, since we were already out that direction anyway. He made us coffee (which was amazing, by the way. There are perks to being friends with people who work at coffee shops.) and then we headed down in the complete opposite direction to pick up my boyfriend from work down in Orem.

Then I came home, ate some "dinner" and then tried to sleep, which hasn't been working for the last four or so hours. Like I said, I have my school's orientation tomorrow morning, and then a job interview after. I just hope I can nap between my job interview, and the time when Jared told me to be ready for our Valentine's date. Otherwise, I might accidentally fall asleep during said date.... though to be honest, I rarely ever fall asleep whilst doing things. I'll probably just end up being crotchety if I don't get at least a little nap in between my interview and our date.

I'd rather NOT put Jared through that. He came to my house once while I was really crotchety, and my mom just so happened to be in a similar mood. When my mom and I get into arguments, we don't really yell, but we get REALLY catty and mean. It always works out in the end, but while we argue, it always feels weird. I hated having him see that, but honestly, he would have seen it at some point, and he didn't seem to be scared off by it. If anything, he was interested in how my mom and I worked and functioned together, even through the hardest parts of it.

Anyway. I should probably try sleeping, you know, before it's dawn and I regret not at least putting in a little MORE effort to try and not go insane.

Another Installment of Things that Bother Me.

It seems unfortunate that my second "Things That Bother Me" post was also inspired by stupid things people have put on facebook. In this case, though, I was inspired by a happy situation turned sad.

I'll talk about that last, though.

LISA'S LIST OF THINGS THAT BOTHER ME... AGAIN...

1. The phrase "Husband and Wife"

I honestly can't explain why, but every single time I hear a significantly older person say the words "husband and wife" I cringe and die a little inside. I think it's because a good majority of the time that an old person has said this to me, it's in some sort of wonky advice that I'm not ready for just yet. I've had this weird sort of stigma against old people giving younger people advice. Not necessarily because I think the older people are wrong, but because a lot of the time, times have changed. Things that worked for them aren't always going to work for the younger generation. I mean, they can give advice to those who are younger, within reason, but if I'm 18 and you're almost hitting 70, your situation-specific advice to me probably isn't going to help much. I mean, I'm kind of an offbeat person. Conservative advice isn't my forte, and that's generally all the old people in my life have to give me.

I love the older people in my life, but it's my life. And if your advice applies and is solid, then yes I will take it... but... guuhh...

Anyway. Every time an older person uses that phrase, I just think "Why can't you just use different words?"


2.  People who change their relationship status on Facebook as a joke.

I understand if you're a close friend with someone. I love having a lot of close friends. But please. Don't be in a relationship on facebook with them if you're NOT ACTUALLY IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM. It's bothersome. It is incredibly misleading and really annoying, especially because I find that those who do it, are usually the really desperate single girls who never get any guys BECAUSE they are so desperate. Those kinds of girls irk me. The only thing they have to talk about is how they're lonely, and how "You should be SOOOOO happy you have someoneeeeee~"

I'll admit, I've been that kind of desperate girl before, and although it isn't something I'm proud of, I still never set my facebook relationship status to anything other than the truth.

AND LASTLY!

3. Parents who parent.... on Facebook.

A parent who parents over FB is NOT a parent who posts their kid's pictures on their wall. A parent who parents over facebook is a parent who does things like... like posting little parenting messages on their walls.

My mom once told me to go to bed via facebook because I was online at about 3 AM and she noticed that I had posted a status. That's different. It's when you full on give your children public talks about things you don't like about what they're doing with their lives that bothers me.

This stemmed from my friend's newly found relationship. She posted a status about missing her boyfriend, and her mom unloaded completely on her, giving her a full "Sex-until-marriage" speech right there in public.

I don't think her mom intended to do any harm. The speech was well within her rights as a parent... But the status was so innocent. It lead me to believe this wasn't the first time her mother was using this speech with her, and in a world where people judge you pretty intensely for these kinds of things, I just... I just felt sick. Not because of what could possibly be a girl who has made unorthodox decisions, but because of her mother's public attitude toward it. If I were struggling with something like this, I wouldn't want my mother to post about it on my facebook. That's just unnecessary and scary and rude and all sorts of things that make me sad. I know her mother wasn't trying to do any harm, and in fact was trying to help, but honestly, I just... I felt so sick thinking about this poor girl and what her mother's  incredibly public sex talk was doing to her emotionally.

If you're a parent, please. Keep those kinds of things between you and your kids. If you are a kid, please be open to communication with your parents, lest everyone in your facebook life be involved in the situation as well.


<3 Lisa

We're All Just Wonderful.

I finally got a picture of me and the Jared thing.

Ain't we adorable?? :D

Anyway. Aside from a nice day with The Jared, I spent today worrying. I know, really counter productive, but I did. I got to spend time with Amanda, which was nice and not stressful AT ALL, but then Jared came with me to my Grandparent's house, which was... nice, yet scary at the same time. I love him, and my grandparents... I just hoped they'd like him too. It seemed to go well, so that's definitely good.

I'm really nervous for Single's Ward tomorrow. I'll be there accompanied by people who absolutely loathe me at this moment, and Jared. I'm so thankful that he'll be there. I think I'd die if I have to go alone. I just keep thinking about being strong, going to church anyway even though I know those who might be there will absolutely tear me apart inside. I'm going for me, and I can't just stop that because people don't like me right now. 

I keep looking at this picture Jared and I took today. I keep thinking about how I sacrificed to be with him, and how this is worth the pain that a days-of-our-lives friendship circle I've been simultaneously blessed and cursed with. I look at this picture and know that at least if people hate me, I've got someone helping me to stand straight and stay strong. That's all I could ask for right now. 

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Trying!

So I'm officially signed up for school. Now I just have to worry about a monthly payment for student loans.

It's so odd... I am so excited to see where school takes me... but at the same time... I worry so much about the money. I suppose getting a job will help :3


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